Some thoughts that get stirred-up inside when I think about being part of a small group…

I’ve been thinking about how much I react and how little I actually act…

Why is it that I think that my “rightness” is the final word?

Have you ever been misrepresented? Has someone judged your motives incorrectly?

It took singing a Christmas carol for me to understand that I do have a Christmas wish list…but it’s not what I thought it was.

Today, I wish that I didn’t feel so much, that I didn’t care what you said or didn’t say.
I wish I didn’t need some sort of affirmation from you that I am worth a damn.

I have seen in my life times when I purposefully ignore what I know God would want me to do and instead do things my way. Do what I want, what I think will make me happy/fulfilled/whatever lie I want to tell myself.

I wonder what impression I am putting out there for people to see. Who am I trying to show you that I am? And more importantly, does that line up with the way I really am?

We are bombarded by lies. All the time. Every day.
But, that’s not the problem. The problem is how often we believe them.

Apparently this sucking at life thing isn’t new for me…sometimes it takes distance and time to realize what I was doing and how wrong it was.