I won’t lie to you. I have to say that I was mad at you the other week. I was very mad. So I’ll write this to you because that’s what friends do when one party is mad at the other, right?
Talk it out.
Hug it out.
I know this letter won’t change you because I don’t want to change anything about you, and besides, you are unchanging. I’d be wasting my time if I wanted you to change.
Anyway, I was mad at you, at least for the moment. That one week nothing seemed to go my way. I didn’t get the one job that seemed perfect, or the girl either. Life in general didn’t go that great.
So I did the one thing that I was best at for the time.
Not talk to you.
That one thing that I thought was best at the time wound up being the worst.
Not talking to you.
I hate that, because you made me for communication with you and we screwed it up. We screwed it up big time. I guess I was just carrying on the tradition from Adam.
I think that I got a small taste of what it’s like to be you today.

I received a quick sentence from a friend again. Just a sentence with not much more than maybe ten or twelve words. Something I get every few months.

Is that what it feels like when I don’t talk to you for a long time?

“Hey what’s up? Things are great here. How are you?”

“Yeah, things are great. We haven’t talked to each other for a while, anything else going on?”

Silence……………..just empty…….vapid……..space. That is usually the typical answer.

I need to talk to you more. I like to. I want to let you know how I am, even though you know it already. I want to let you know how rad you are. I want to let you know that no matter how much this life sucks or even how beautiful it can be, you’ll still do what you do best and that is being yourself. You’re pretty much the only sure thing that I have. I’m ok with that.

Thanks for listening. Thanks for letting me be honest, especially with myself.

See you soon, just not soon enough……..

“Whoever gives an honest answer kisses the lips.” Proverbs 24:26

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